Tuesday, May 31, 2011
12:51 AM Y
Post title : love again n again..
♥ You'll never know the real me.
these 2 weeks have been rather tough..
n emotionally challenging..
there was a quarrel that erupted..
between 2 hot-headed females..
ha.. dat's not me..
perhaps it's due to years
of accumulated frustrations
and lack of proper communication..
though that outburst has
caused both parties to be hurt..
yet it has opened up
the doors of communication..
n i juz feel that we
really need to love one another..
felt helpless.. at the situation..
and perhaps of the closeness
between me and the 2 persons involved..
it juz feel so xin tong..
n wished that things had turned otherwise..
the other episode involved
me and a 'sheep of mine'
the episode juz
left me disappointed..
and wondering..
wat's behind dat mask?
n.. how can we truly tell
wat is a person's true character..
it left me scared.. n fearful..
of drawing close to the person..
and caring for the person..
lest i am hurt again..
i dunno wat the precious
lessons are for me to learn..
i juz noe that i need to
learn what it means to love..
all over again.. and again..
even when it hurts..
12:44 AM Y
Post title : 2 gong tut tuts quarrel..
♥ You'll never know the real me.
wat happens when 2 gong gong
tut tut persons quarrel?
one was hungry..
one got carried away with a SALE..
then the one who was hungry became angry..
decide to go home instead..
the other one was frustrated..
both were sad.. yet both walked away..
one cried.. one's heart was xin suan..
thankfully.. the love between them
kept them communicating on watsapp..
though angry, chose to speak calmly n nicely..
the words came back and forth.. back and forth..
and the rational side of them
kept each other from saying angry words..
n that also helped to build
a closer bond n understanding..
through this little episode..
Saturday, May 28, 2011
2:18 AM Y
Post title : sad..
♥ You'll never know the real me.
My heart is deeply sad n burdened.. So much has happened..
I do not know what to make out of today's fight.. Perhaps it has been years of accumulated frustrations and unresolved anger..
There is just so much hurt within...
Pain n misunderstandings..
Both parties are hurt.. I dunno wat to do..
Monday, May 9, 2011
3:13 PM Y
Post title : he's bk..
♥ You'll never know the real me.
dad is bk today..
hopefully for gd..
actually if u ask me,
i was not exactly looking fwd to this day..
honestly, i do dread..
bcos i am fearful of going thru the same vicious cycle,
of coming out, promises given, then slowly,
bad habits return, bad company surrounds,
and before i know it, everything else is bad to square 1..
i am 32 this year, and i have been thru the prison doors
to visit him since i was very young.. i can't rem the exact age,
maybe when i was 7?
the vicious cycle has remained..
i prayed for a breakthrough..
but it seemed quite a halfhearted prayer..
if u are reading this, could u pray for us?
that there will b a tremendous breakthrough!!
i am praying that i will believe..
and truly believe it..
